Thanksgiving

My thanksgiving followed the tradition of my typical thanksgiving, but for once my uncle Garry was not there. We go to RYE, NY and have a marvelous feast with friends (that I consider family).

This event for my family is mostly valued on its antibody experience and is enhanced by the body centered experience of feasting together. When I mean the antibody experience, I mean talking. We also do a lot of hugging and kissing, my family is a bunch of old hippies. the food enchances the sense of being together because we all eat the same food,at a table together.The food though delicious and healthy is not very important, we could have been eating pizza in a small apartment and the being together would make our event special.
Other pleasures practiced were watching my cousin’s play on television (it was taped), but I wouldnt neccesarily call it a pleasure because of the viewing. rather the joy and pride it instilled in my cousin. Other pleasures were also game playing. A game we really enjoy and heartbreaking-ly reminds me of my uncle is exquised corpse. One folds a paper in thrids and one person draws the head and then adds some connecting lines to the next section and fold over the head so it is not visble and passed on to someone who then draws a torso, who then fold it over with connecting lines and the last person draws waist down and you end up with an exquisite corpse. We also played a similar game but instead you do the same principle with words.
These games do not involve physical contact but it creates mental contact as the game goes on the ideas begin to intertwine. I find it a good represntation of how were are all borthers and sisters whether we like it or not. I enjoy this game because when there is no desire to talk one can communicate with art, and it symbolizes unity because you cannot play exquisite corpse if there are less than 3 people ! I belive physicality is important, but emotional closeness can be just as strong. I belive physicality is i9mportant when emotions for other beings are just not strong enough. My uncle helped me out this thanksgiving because after all the partying was done and I had nothing to occupy my brain I had a breakdown. The wise words he shared with me were helpful in the long wrong, but what ultimately help me sing my sorrows was his touch. Him holding me is what kept me together but let me share my broken train of thought. Anti body communication is also very important because if a relationship can not share what bothers them there issues clash until a broken thoughts splint everyone painfully and there is a crash, many times this also comes from a loss of physicality. I belive both are just as important for PERSONS HEALTHY MIND.

A weird background element that I belive resembles the fear of death is photography. At one point in the evening there were 4 people taking pictures and there were only 12 people at the party. The desire to capture a memory a moment so one can re-live it for ever. The fear of losing the past. I feel it connects to death because we want to reach for a sense of filling up loss. Death was also very connected to this event because of the recent loss of my uncle, so from time to time thoughts of him would come up and half fill the space empty because of his abscence.