life

Interviewing my parents, which was sort of hysterical because I knew the answers to most of the questions I asked or at least the building blocks. Which then lead to deeper responses, I have not necessarily herd before (from my father in particular). In my family we talk about EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING, I have the most liberal up bring one can have, or relatively speaking to others I know. I am so thankful for the not only liberal but also OPEN family I come from because as a result I am not afraid of death. This openness is most intense with my immediate family (manman & pops) but its pretty open with the rest of my family as well. THIS IS WHY I DON’T HOLD MY TOUNGE & TALK SO FUCKING MUCH (TOO MUCH).

After interviewing I had this odd sense of not being an independent thinker. All my beliefs on death and illness are the same as my parents; If I were raised Republican and Capitalist and fit the "NORMAL"/dominant belief of Americans would I whole heartily agree with what my parents believed? I feel I question a lot of things and am intuitive, intelligent, confident, outspoken, because OF MY PARENTS. So if it weren’t for them, would I be the same deep down inside and still find a liberal way of life?

The first question asked was by my Pops, because my first one was knowingly too general for a response. He asked "Should people who are terminally ill, be allowed to end there own life?" His answer was YES ABSOLUTLEY, and they should be supported by the government, family and with the medical assistance needed. (I agree, which I am not going to state further because it will be redundant.) This clearly exemplifies our chained society, which seems to be different groups of herds that follow one ignoranous ideas and deem them as normal. This in its self is WEIRD, relative to normal. (Even though I no longer like the term weird because it is stating that something is not right because it differentiates from the norm.) HOW IS SOMEONE NOT FIT OF DETERMINING WHEN THERE LIFE SHOULD END, IT IS THEIR'Sdea AND NO ONE ELSES! We come into this world alone (even though aided by a woman), and shall leave it alone (possibly aided by other energy). Capitalist constantly set normal’s to there advantage so the herds try to conform to the labels and in doing so facilitate their goals, such as health insurance, hospitals, and pharmaceutical companies.

In my family we would love to go to a holistic doctor, but the harsh reality is WE CANNOT AFFORD IT. So we go to dominantly considered normal (health insurance covered) doctors to do general "les analyses"(in the words of my mother because when the interview was conducted in English she would respond with "quoi?"). In order to make sure there are no tumors in our chest or mercury in our blood, and from there we do what we can with home-remedies (holistic methods). I have never been vaccinated and my mother treats me for the most part with homeopathic. Why? She says because she feared to many chemicals in body, whether it was the right choice she doesn’t know. We will see, but I think she did.

My father is thankful for the advances in Medicine in his lifetime and over the past few hundred years, because a while ago he would be considered very old, and near death (age51). Also because he has the medical condition of Arthritis (he’s got it bad too!) and without the Medical advances they have made he would be constant pain. He would be shunned from society because in our industrial world (he only has a high school education) he would have no place. This and penicillin (and I am guessing his anti-depressants, even though I think we should look into alternatives besides alcohol) are why he likes the allopathic system. I wonder if inventions such as penicillin have made us weaker as a race (people who use them) because it is a way to escape pain and if you have to deal with this pain it builds a callous. What he doesn’t like about the system is that it is distant from human nurturing. It shuns others approaches, it is embraced and supported by the capitalist system making it about profit and control and appeasing of the people, besides the scientist truly seeking to cure the maladies. I think this exemplifies the INSANITY and abnormality of our society that the healing of the mind and human body IS predominantly INDUSTRIAL?

Discussing death with my parents as the questions went deeper became hard (because of our recent lost) and emotional. The first things both my parents stated was that death is inevitable. This (&witnessing it) has helped me accept many aspects of life that we cannot avoid, and they are part of our animal experience. There is no point fighting something you cannot avoid. These thoughts have also help me deviate from sick thoughts such as the world’s current obsession with eternal youth externally. There intense desire to avoid what is inevitable. . . . . AGING, LEADING TO DEATH. Our people are so afraid and in denial of the one thing we have known for sure since the beginning of time, TIME ENDS. So they so seemingly try to fight the effects of time, but the ultimate effect is unavoidable (I hope forever, what will this world come to if people can live forever).

Something I did not touch upon in my interviews and we don’t seem to in class, is metal illness. I feel like metal illness is also something taboo in our culture because A. I am sure people would deny the claim B. our brains are very sacred. In our society people tend to talk about mental illness with uncertainty, AND WE SHUNN the mentally ill. We either make fun of them, send them to institutes, and we consider them unfit for commonplace in our society. I mean mental illness such as schizophrenia to one to many chromosomes.